Author of Silent Victim and Untold Stories
Growing up in a Child Porn Ring & How I Survived a Child Porn Ring Family Shame, Timmy is found out, and becomes the big family secret.
Sorry Family Shame took so long in coming. I was not able to have children of my own, and this book Family Shame explains why. However, I could adopt and did. I adopted two boys pretty much at birth. They were my pride and joy but while I was writing tragedy hit my family. My two boys were tragically taken. Skyler 13 and Joshua 10. The two most precious gift's God gave me. My beautiful boys were filled with life and love. Everyone who met our boys instantly fell in love with them and were better for it. Boys I love you, and I think of you every day....
The moment that you boys died my heart was torn in two, one side filled with heartache. The other died with you. I often lie awake at night, when the world is fast asleep, and take a walk down memory lane, with tears running down my cheek. Remembering, you boys is easy. I do it every day, but missing you is heartache that never goes away. I hold you boys tightly within my heart, and there you will remain. Until the joyous day arrives, that we will meet again. Love you boys Skyler, please look after J.J love dad...
Please remember when reading my book. I'm not a professional writer, nor do I have an agent. My books are from my perspective as a child, not as an adult. Names and places have been changed to protect the privacy of the other kids. Because I received a settlement from my abusers, people think I should shut up and go away. However, this is my story, and I needed to share it...
My newest book Family Shame is a tragic true story of an 11yr old boy looking for love in all the wrong places. Timmy finds himself in a dark lonely horrific world of child pornography. While trying to survive physical and mental abuse he suffers by his mother Linda. Who is constantly looking for ways to punish Timmy. Linda who was also abused as a child she drinks and dose drugs and is crazy with anger, and her youngest son is clearly in her way. Timmy's father works out of town and is hardly at home and when he is, he wants nothing to do with his son Timmy.
When not being beaten at home, he is being tortured and forced to perform sexual acts on other boys and men and coerced into appearing in pornographic movies for a group of men who serve as his surrogate parents. The group of men shower Timmy with affection and gifts. However, the older Timmy gets the harder it becomes to control him, and the men revert to intimidation fear and black mail to keep control over Timmy.
Bill is a high-power lawyer and the leader within the group of men who has taken Timmy under his wing and winning the favor of Timmy's parents. Bill shower Timmy with affection and gifts; he becomes the male role model Timmy's needs and hunger for. Even so, Timmy is misguided and thinks sex means love, and money tells him how well he is. Making him the perfect victim.
When Timmy is found out by his father, he becomes the big family secret. Family Shame tells of a scary and lonely world of abuse and pornography and the effects these environments had on him as a child and an adult. I hope my books open up society's eyes on child abuse. We don't only have to worry about our little girls. The hidden truth is we must worry about our boys. 1 out of 5 boys are molested. They are being raped by teachers, coaches, Boy Scout leaders, and even men of the cloth. Kids are even raping and molesting each other. You may ask yourself why?
Because we as a society have ignored it. Years ago a dad could molest his son and if he got caught he would only get a slap on the wrist. We as a society must do better to write and enact laws to put these criminals behind bars where they belong. This not only applies to sexual abuse but to mental and physical abuse. Our children are the future they should be treated as such. Children are like diamonds, you would never throw one away or leave it out in the front yard. You would clean it, hold it, and protect it. We adults have the responsibility to protect the FUTURE....
My publishers printed my books in the wrong order Silent Victim is the first in the series. For the ones that have read Untold Stories, please buy and read Silent Victim so that maybe it will help you understand a little better. Trust me if you read Silent Victim first, it will make more sense.
Here's a song written by Jason Michael Carroll it's called Alyssa Lies. Trigger Warning it'll make you cry...